Compassion is Always The Medicine
How to be Divinely Human and come back to joy when all hope is lost
It’s crazy how, when we are on the spiritual journey we learn so much. We go down to the depths most will never dare to go. Or perhaps aren’t even sure exist.
But sometimes what comes with this vast spiritual knowledge is sort of self judgment they don’t tell you about. Wow, I know so much, I’ve healed so much so when my darkness arises I should know better. I should do better.
The ever harmful, “I shouldn’t be like this.”
Last week was a hell of a week. I have covid for 12 days for the first time. It hit me quite hard and I somehow managed, in my sickness to miss an incredibly important opportunity for which someone had hired me.
I was riddled with fear, shame, sadness, confusion. I felt lost. I felt gray.
And do you know what my lesson was?
Grace.
Grace that I just watched movies for 9 days and periodically sat in the sun. I had no mental or physical energy to push, force, try or create.
So many thoughts of, I need to be doing something to future my business, to pay my bills arose in me. Or what is wrong with me?
So many thoughts of….for the umpteenth time….”I am too embarrassed to tell my friends that I’m sick again,” rose in my head. They’ll think I’m just getting sick for attention.” No one has ever said that to me but my own head.
Through divine grace, I was guided to one of my mentors videos later in the week and her message as always, is love. Is forgivness. Is compassion. Is divine medicine.
Is to meet the messy with acceptance.
How the fuck? Right?
And over and over and over again I tried my best. Through the mental dullness, the tears, the ick I said to myself, “It’s ok you feel this way. We don’t need to fix it. God can. You just rest as long as you need to.”
Those moments feel endless when you are in them, don’t they. They feel, like you will be that way your whole life.
But after 2 weeks of sickness and a whole love of compassion, grace and unconditional love- medicine, the lightness started to return.
I’m ever reminded, as I’m here today reminding you that no matter what was handed down to you, you have a choice. You can meet the darkness inside of you with cruelty or love.
Even when your mind says, “Omg this again?” You can say, it’s ok there is judgment. And let the energy move through you. You can see it and not be it. You aren’t it.
You are the soul essence experiencing it and that’s not always easy to see sometimes.
12 days later I felt excitement rise in my body over a new creative idea and I knew to not let my mind try to make sense of it but trust it. To go in that direction. To play. So when love is here, it brings you back to the light.
Because I know, that I know, that I know, to follow deeper divine feelings. Because that is Me calling to Me. That is my way home. That is your way home. That is our way home.
If you want to explore self love medicine to heal your body, mind and spirit and come back to lightness and joy too …..
